Last night I went to my aunt and uncle's house with my parents. I wasn't excited at first because as much as I love them, the four of them have lots of catching up to do, and I'm just in the way. As it turns out though, my little cousins, Julia (4) and Sophia (2) were there and we had sooooooo much fun. It's interesting how whenever I have a bad day, little ones have a way of making me feel so much better. We cuddled on the couch and watched Princess Barbie and Strawberry Shortcake. Oh, the good things in life.

I really hate it when people think I'm stupid, naiive and oblivious.

I really want to go back to EC.

I really want someone to tell me that this is all just part of life and I'll get over it

I really just want to know that all the things I've been made to believe about myself aren't true  

And I want to hear it from someone who is a million miles away and I can't even tell this all to.

I've been home 4 days and I already don't know what to do with myself. I'm going back to work today which is probably a good thing because I'll go nuts around the house. I love my parents, but I'm just struggling because I don't really feel like I live here anymore. So much of my life is in Eau Claire now. I need something permanent.

On another note, I think that everyone I know is engaged. My roomate Becky called me to tell me that her boyfriend proposed the day she got home for Christmas break. Don't get me wrong, I'm soooo happy for her, and so excited to stand up in the wedding, but I'm a little jealous. I've been single now for over two months and I guess God just has a different plan for my life right now. Funny how that works.

I'm hanging out with a friend tonight and I get to see Libbi next week and hopefully Katie for New Years. That is probably the only thing getting me through!

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY JESUS!

Highlights of this Christmas:

*A little girl in church last night raised her hand and asked our pastor if we could all sing Happy Birthday to Jesus

*Driving around with one of my favorite people and looking at Christmas lights

*Curling up with blankets in front of the fireplace

*Having my mom put a Christmas tree up in my room with a paper chain decorating it that her kindergarteners made

*I get to see friends that I don't normally get to see (Libbi!)

*Forgetting to decorate our Christmas tree and decorating it late on Christmas Eve. Better late than never.....we were being old fashioned!

Oh....yay family. They are good for reminiscing and laughs. I'm glad to be home.